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the room was hazy with smoke and he occupied the solitary chair. the lights were out he was contemplating whether he liked darkness or let the light simmer the room. the ash tray was lying on the table filled with contempt as ash grazed its boundaries. He always wanted to be sure of himself,
always wanted to know what was happening in his life,
and how dare things got out of control but they did and this is what brought him to the solace of 2 pack, sit and think something he had long forgotten to do in this impeccable world. his thoughts wandered to the last few days with the memories dancing before his eyes only if he had understood their significance in time .... alas! life is never fair it always screws you when you least expect it.
he had to make THE decision of his life her or career for neither can survive other. one has to be sacrificed at the alter of life.
the memories flashed before him making it even more difficult for him to choose his brain was faltering him, never in his life he was an emotional fool (as he called them) but stakes have reversed now he has become one of them. his work gave him so much joy when he worked, he worked the world lay at his doorsteps people ceased to matter nothing could come between him and his brains put on paper he was so content until she happened that's life he kept telling himself but within he knew what havoc it was creating. ignorance is bliss someone said .
he had never gone against his ego he had never compromised on himself he had never uttered a word of regret he had never rendered an apology for there was no desire there was no need of company, perhaps he was a loner perhaps but he withstood it all.
his eyes were expressionless his face was a hollow mass of 1000 year old banyan tree his hands were shaking his mouth fumed with smoke
it was 4:00 AM he had two hours to decide
until now he never considered himself to be weak, he lit the umpteenth cigarette and looked down through the window of this 49th storeyed flat and laughed frivolously......