outburst

i can't understand why are u saying sorry what for what have u done nothing. the fault is mine clearly i am in no league with you one says what he feels you have said for yourself perfect . this is a democratic country after all one has the right to speak his mind and if the other person doesn't like it he better debate but i agree with you completely totally and concluded its all my fault neither yours so quit saying sorry and one more thing i don't want your pity for heaven's sakes. u don't have to stoop to my level otherwise where is the all so godly distance so please don't embarrass yourself any more there is no need to after all who vouches for us lesser mortals in life people have only one thing open to them to choose with whom they want to associate , people have different paths such paths may meet at a point but not for long and if they do then its too crowded for them to walk they liberty, the freedom is lost u have chosen yours let me choose mine i plead insanity ...... at least let me have that

the mercedes came to halt. i heaved a sigh not audible enough yet it could be felt . I opened the door got out looked around the hills which surrounded us,standing i the midst of the valley filled my heart with ovation. with a lump in my throat i opened the back door of the car my daughter was sleeping with her head in her lap as she was working on her lap top .the time has come, unexpectedly she woke up with a start to the cool breeze of what was going to be her home for the next 7 years . like father she'd be educated in a boarding school the very best i had decided ages ago and had dreaded this day but it was necessary .

solitude

finally i have found a place where i can see the city lights, without being bothered by other people i can sit through hours and just look just watch just think about my life
my ways, my habbits my reflection and my integrity . well, living in noida that too in a hostel and to find such a secluded place is like an entrance through the pearly gates opened only for me.
the place is a heaven in night ,believe me purring of vehicles , lights of the highway shining bright i can see the guards but they can't see me although the place i am at is supposedly offlimits to students but since when have i given a damn to the rules !
i do it untill i think its wrong , anywaz the one question which still lingers my mind is whether i am a loner ?

i like being alone at times i like being alone because its only when i can hear myself i like being alone when i am tired of the world and its worldly ways
and nowi can't even see :P